Yes i am bad don’t you dare to come to me again, this time i will hurt you worst not to the skin of your’s but the heart with the tongue.
You asked me everytime what you deserve, I said better then what you have better then Me.
Now when i am not what you have right now I ask you what i deserve.
Dose i deserve to be fooled to be lied to be broken. No i don’t.
I am bad and i feel good to be bad. You brought me to this to the world of words where i can put my anger into sentences of agony.
I use to say things to my self and gets over your torture but now i will say it to you by not saying to your face.
I said i was fine but it always hurts me I prayed to the almighty to give me a person who is afraid to loose me.
Falling in love with someone who doesn’t know how to love you is the saddest thing can happen.
Is there anything that stays loyal forever? I asked myself.
LegendaryBAT 
Yeah, the true love stays forever. And btw is so sad! Is that real? (Wow, I love that Bulma and Vegeta picture!)
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I just tried to write what i feel. And yes bulma and Vegeta they look good.
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Oh, poor you. Well, don’t worry, with time you’ll find your true love. And that love sure is for ever.
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Sometimes we love but come to realise we cannot heal those we love only inflict more harm even though that is the opposite of our intention. I am in a similar situation. I cannot speak for the one you repudiate and seek to rend in your anger, but I will tell you what I have begun to understand about my own situation.
I cry myself to sleep most nights because I have realised I was arrogant in thinking my love and desire to heal would be enough for one I was coming to care for deeply. While my wounds are small compared to his, I am a fractured creature who dared to think I was whole. Thankfully he, like you, held up a mirror and showed me my inadequacies.
I have unintentionally damaged others in the past and created more harm than good not just for the one I loved but for my friends and family. I pulled away from my love for fear of harming them as well. In doing so I have imprisoned myself in a wasteland and lost any hope for the future. And at my age the future may not be long.
Of my loves feelings I know little as he constantly pushed me away in a manner similar to that which you describe, and while at first I thought my joy in him would melt the barriers he gave me cryptic messages that confused me (which probably shows I was not the one). The mirror he held up for me may have been an act of love or a weapon., I still turn that conversation over in my mind, endlessly. I will never know, but I will constantly question my capacity to follow through and to love truly even though this is still my hearts desire.
Wounds must be healed from within or they continue to echo through our lives and loves, and do more damage. They also echo down the generations.
I stubbornly refuse to be sorry to have met him, to have shared hope, laughter and joy with him, and if (when?) I hurt him by disturbing his peace then letting him loose, I am deeply truly sorry and I beg his forgiveness. I hope one day he will forgive me, but I don’t see the possibility of that just now as he refuses to have me come near him, just as you are doing with your love.
These words are not meant as a criticism of you or your choices, but perhaps they may give you a slightly different perspective and ease your pain a little. I hope so.
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Thank you so much for your words and telling your story. It is all my emotions that i write. But you connected to my story is something i think i achieved. And you just helped me and by telling the other perspective you really eased my pain. I wish you best in your life ☺️
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